Diary of a Hopeless|Hapless Lost-Boy

Mr. Libertine is:
:: Non-Cisgendered Male :: WTF-ever-non-sexual :: Anti-theist Atheist :: Unpretty Azn :: Shameless Pervert :: Condescending Assface ::

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There are no wolves in the garden of eden. This is my next tattoo. I’m leaving it up to my artist to do the lettering because I don’t know how, but it will say the above quote. To explain it a bit, the quote is from the movie The Wolves of Kromer where wolves were gay people. It was a weird metaphor/symbolism but they were young men who dressed in fur coats and had tails. So yes. There’s a rather blasphemous meaningon my part, because essentially, the reason I want it is to express, yes, these religions, these dogmas condem homosexuals. They cast them out of paradise. But I won’t have it to support that sentiment. The bloke I drew is supposed to be Oscar Wilde. Oscar Wilde, as you may or may not know, was a huge influence in my life. He was also not heterosexual (tho it is contested whether he was bisexual or gay). This amazing man is a wolf unworthy of paradise. If you ask me, I say fuck your paradise. The apple should be willingly taken. Blah, there’s a lot of meaning but an equal amount of LOL I JUST WANT IT TO LOOK NICE. But yeah. Future inks! 8D View high resolution

There are no wolves in the garden of eden.

This is my next tattoo. I’m leaving it up to my artist to do the lettering because I don’t know how, but it will say the above quote.

To explain it a bit, the quote is from the movie The Wolves of Kromer where wolves were gay people. It was a weird metaphor/symbolism but they were young men who dressed in fur coats and had tails. So yes.

There’s a rather blasphemous meaningon my part, because essentially, the reason I want it is to express, yes, these religions, these dogmas condem homosexuals. They cast them out of paradise. But I won’t have it to support that sentiment. The bloke I drew is supposed to be Oscar Wilde. Oscar Wilde, as you may or may not know, was a huge influence in my life. He was also not heterosexual (tho it is contested whether he was bisexual or gay).

This amazing man is a wolf unworthy of paradise. If you ask me, I say fuck your paradise. The apple should be willingly taken.

Blah, there’s a lot of meaning but an equal amount of LOL I JUST WANT IT TO LOOK NICE. But yeah. Future inks! 8D

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My only thoughts on the Corona trial.

Yo, I’m totally fine with Corona getting convicted, but only if they stop being selective with who they want to impeach. Which means to say, don’t just pick on people firstly because they refuse to suck PNoy & his administration’s dick AND THEN look for something to charge them with.

Or better yet, can we just sack the do-nothing president who cares more about getting even people who show him up over focusing on more important issues next?

Because, y’know, it’s pretty bad form when the guy under scrutiny does his job far better than the guy who’s exhausting all his energy trying to ensure the first guy goes down. Sure, there’s no denying the first guy’s a dick. The second guy’s an even bigger dick tho.

What Alek has gotten out of this trial: Our president & his administration are not above acting like vindictive children and will waste a shitton of money just to get their way.

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kingbeetle: sspirate: kingbeetle: sspirate: I see the argument “Only cis scum get offended by Die Cis Scum.” a lot.  And while I can most definitely understand WHY this term was invented and why it is used in some circles, one has to realize just how detrimental and polarizing this term is. “Die cis scum” is far too simple and it implies all cisgendered people are scum. I get that that isn’t what it’s MEANT to mean, but it most certainly implies it.   It’s very much similar to another polarizing phrase- “Kill Whitey.”  It’s a violent phrase, and phrases like that do nothing but hurt whatever cause or movement it’s meant to support. I can tell you with absolute certainty that that phrase will do nothing but alienate the average person and cause them to hesitate on supporting trans people who they think may hate them based on being cisgendered. I can most definitely understand the need for a battle cry, but “die cis scum” is a shitty one.  Sorry to screencap this and post it, but you used the fanmail-inbox and I’m unable to post those. :I /firstworldproblems Well, I see what you mean in that it’s polarizing. But I honestly believe that “cis people getting offended because ‘die cis scum’ can be interpreted as ‘die ALL cis people’” still isn’t a huge problem in the least. Huge problems would be, say, people like CeCe McDonald, who was about to be killed by a someone for being transgender and black. She fought back to defend herself, and he was killed. She STILL went to jail. A trans guy went to use the bathroom. Somebody clocked him, attacked him, and carved “IT” in his chest. Trans women in Chicago are automatically suspected as being prostitutes. If a trans person wants to get their gender marker changed in Sweden, they MUST be sterilized. They aren’t allowed to freeze sperm or save eggs from their ovaries. So am I concerned over a few cis people being offended over “die cis scum”? Not really. And honestly, if Joe Average is “pushed away” from helping trans people because of the phrase, they probably weren’t very good allies in the first place. Honestly, a true ally should understand all the injustice that happens to the trans community, and should realize that “cis scum” doesn’t automatically mean “all cis people.” Again, I understand why the phrase exists. And you’re most certainly are entitled to use it for its intended meaning and whatever else. But I, personally, still think it’s a shitty phrase.  Phrases can certainly be shitty, but I firmly believe that there are far shittier things in life to get offended at. Sorry to jump in on something that isn’t really any of my business, but I don’t support the logic of “there are worse things, so lets not bother with things that aren’t as bad”. I hate the phrase Die Cis Scum because it is violent rhetoric. I refuse to allow this to be an acceptable thing for people to say. On the scale of terrible things, that is indeed very low priority but that doesn’t mean it’s suddenly NOT!Terrible. Fine, I get that if someone really wanted to be an ally, they shouldn’t be bothered by such a thing when such injustices happen to trans people on such a huge scale. So don’t stop using it because of losing potential allies then. Stop using it because it makes you look like an asshole. You don’t even need to be the target of that phrase to hate it. You can hate it simply because you prolly fucking hate violent rhetoric. /Blah blah blah, giving opinions where they aren’t wanted bloop~ View high resolution

kingbeetle:

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kingbeetle:

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I see the argument “Only cis scum get offended by Die Cis Scum.” a lot. 

And while I can most definitely understand WHY this term was invented and why it is used in some circles, one has to realize just how detrimental and polarizing this term is. “Die cis scum” is far too simple and it implies all cisgendered people are scum. I get that that isn’t what it’s MEANT to mean, but it most certainly implies it.  

It’s very much similar to another polarizing phrase- “Kill Whitey.”  It’s a violent phrase, and phrases like that do nothing but hurt whatever cause or movement it’s meant to support. I can tell you with absolute certainty that that phrase will do nothing but alienate the average person and cause them to hesitate on supporting trans people who they think may hate them based on being cisgendered.

I can most definitely understand the need for a battle cry, but “die cis scum” is a shitty one. 

Sorry to screencap this and post it, but you used the fanmail-inbox and I’m unable to post those. :I /firstworldproblems

Well, I see what you mean in that it’s polarizing. But I honestly believe that “cis people getting offended because ‘die cis scum’ can be interpreted as ‘die ALL cis people’” still isn’t a huge problem in the least. Huge problems would be, say, people like CeCe McDonald, who was about to be killed by a someone for being transgender and black. She fought back to defend herself, and he was killed. She STILL went to jail.

A trans guy went to use the bathroom. Somebody clocked him, attacked him, and carved “IT” in his chest.

Trans women in Chicago are automatically suspected as being prostitutes.

If a trans person wants to get their gender marker changed in Sweden, they MUST be sterilized. They aren’t allowed to freeze sperm or save eggs from their ovaries.

So am I concerned over a few cis people being offended over “die cis scum”? Not really. And honestly, if Joe Average is “pushed away” from helping trans people because of the phrase, they probably weren’t very good allies in the first place. Honestly, a true ally should understand all the injustice that happens to the trans community, and should realize that “cis scum” doesn’t automatically mean “all cis people.”

Again, I understand why the phrase exists. And you’re most certainly are entitled to use it for its intended meaning and whatever else. But I, personally, still think it’s a shitty phrase. 

Phrases can certainly be shitty, but I firmly believe that there are far shittier things in life to get offended at.

Sorry to jump in on something that isn’t really any of my business, but I don’t support the logic of “there are worse things, so lets not bother with things that aren’t as bad”.

I hate the phrase Die Cis Scum because it is violent rhetoric. I refuse to allow this to be an acceptable thing for people to say. On the scale of terrible things, that is indeed very low priority but that doesn’t mean it’s suddenly NOT!Terrible.

Fine, I get that if someone really wanted to be an ally, they shouldn’t be bothered by such a thing when such injustices happen to trans people on such a huge scale. So don’t stop using it because of losing potential allies then. Stop using it because it makes you look like an asshole. You don’t even need to be the target of that phrase to hate it. You can hate it simply because you prolly fucking hate violent rhetoric.

/Blah blah blah, giving opinions where they aren’t wanted bloop~

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So last night was the 10th anniversary of STRAP (the Society of Transsexual Women of the Philippines) and Nick, El, Ar & I were able to attend.

I haven’t even blogged about our attending the Human Rights Paralegal training on LGBT Issues thing. It was an awesome 3 day workshop but I’ll tell you about that some other time.

Anyway, can you imagine, 10 years! The girls always joke that they want to be there during OUR 10 year anniversary and I always laugh it off.  But dang, am I proud of the girls. They’re litterally our big sister organization and I wish them all the best and wanna thank them for all the help they’ve given us.

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kingbeetle: transparrotfish: [Image description: Background is 8 piece pie style color split with black and blue alternating. Foreground is a photo of a parrotfish. Top text reads “Oh, that’s an interesting name. Why did your parents choose it?”. Bottom text reads “Poker Face”. End description.] My mom actually chose my name (it was the one I would’ve gotten if I’d been born a cis dude). I like it too, so it works out. (The main reason I like it is because I can be like, “Hey I’m Marcus but please—call me Marc” and that’s something I’ve always wanted to do.) Hey, highfive, man! :D My dad actually picked out mine too. No one calls me by my full name and that’s fine. But I do agree that going Hi, I’m __________ but you can call me ______ is more enjoyablee than one would think.

kingbeetle:

transparrotfish:

[Image description: Background is 8 piece pie style color split with black and blue alternating. Foreground is a photo of a parrotfish. Top text reads “Oh, that’s an interesting name. Why did your parents choose it?”. Bottom text reads “Poker Face”. End description.]

My mom actually chose my name (it was the one I would’ve gotten if I’d been born a cis dude). I like it too, so it works out. (The main reason I like it is because I can be like, “Hey I’m Marcus but please—call me Marc” and that’s something I’ve always wanted to do.)

Hey, highfive, man! :D My dad actually picked out mine too. No one calls me by my full name and that’s fine. But I do agree that going Hi, I’m __________ but you can call me ______ is more enjoyablee than one would think.

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kingbeetle:

fussybabybitch:

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literally the first description of male gay sex i ever read was in a shitty fucking gundam wing yaoi fanfiction and it was so vague about the anatomical details that i wound up thinking one guy puts his penis inside the other guy’s penis. ten years later, i find out that it turns out you actually CAN do that, with a little adjustment. i only wish i had found out via gundam wing yaoi fanfiction.

i had this exact same experience except it was Dib/Professor Membrane

when I first wrote a sex scene I knew about buttsex and all but I thought that the guy who’s penetrating would just put his dick into the other guy and just… keep it there, I guess? 

no thrusting or anything just sticking his dick in another dude’s ass and sitting there like nbd.

I don’t think I even knew what an orgasm was at that point (I tried to ask my parents while we were out eating once and they scolded me while old people looked offended so I didn’t figure it out for a while).

Sweet baby cheeses. I am laughing my ass off because that is one of the most guarded secrets of my youth. I too once actually thought that in fics, peens went into each other. Not that long later, I found out it wasn’t so and was so embarassed of my misinformation that I pretended it never happened.

So ashamed. ,___,

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Required help dressing up.

Like a child!

So semi-formal, yeah? Okay, I got it. Something suit like. Yes. :D I’ve got the nice black slacks down all pressed and lint (cat hair) free, but I need to decide on what I’m wearing topside.

So, I’ve got my favorite shirt with a blazer I’m not really fond of.

My favorite blazer with a shirt I’m not really fond of.

Or maybe a shirt I am less not-fond-of, but more fond of than the last one.

Or maybe I should pick a lighter polo?

Bujt really, all I want is to wear my Steve!Jacket.

ITS AWESOME ENOUGH TO PRETEND TO BE SEMI-FORMAL, RIGHT???

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2357) I’m fine with guys who want to be completely stealth. I’m also fine with guys who want to shout about their transness from the rooftops. I’m cool with guys who see it as a birth defect, I’m good with guys who view it as an intrinsic part of their identity. If you conform to the binary, that’s OK with me. If you completely go against it, also OK. Whatever your experience is, it’s fine. I won’t question it. What I’m NOT OK with, however, is guys who proclaim that their way is the only way.

(Source: ftmconfessions, via ftmconfessions)

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So I bought this new jacket and realized it’d make a convincing Casual!Steve Rogers Sort-of Cosplay jacket. So I watched the Avengers fro the 3rd time yesterday dressed as Steeeeb. :3c View high resolution

So I bought this new jacket and realized it’d make a convincing Casual!Steve Rogers Sort-of Cosplay jacket. So I watched the Avengers fro the 3rd time yesterday dressed as Steeeeb. :3c

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I'm getting desperate here. LOL

But could you help a lad out here?

I’m trying to win this silly internet contest which is just basically get the most votes blah.
So if you could go here and vote ‘Alek W. would like a flacket pls.’, that would be suuuuuper.
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It is not your place to tell people about my life. You have no right or business outing me to people I have not met, that I have just met or will meet in the future without my knowledge or consent.

‘They’re going to find out anyway’ is not a justifiable reason. Even if they did, it still is not your business to go ahead and tell them. If they will find out, they will do so from me.

‘But aren’t you out and proud?’ is also not a justification especially when it has nothing to do with the person you are telling. Why would you think it is okay that almost strangers deserve to know that much about me for no other reason?

And lastly, stop being angry when I correct you, or tell you off about your behaviour. Because do you really think your being told off outweighs the disrespect you’re showing me by being so careless about my personal life? It’s infuriating. If you want to try to be good and considerate people, you will listen to me when I tell you about what you’re doing wrong and not make me feel like I have no right to keep bringing 　

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Everyone has been notified.

drawnout:

We’ve sent out acceptance/rejection letters, so anyone who submitted should know if they made the cut or not. Can I just say, WOW, there was so much talent, and this was hard. We had to reject so many good creators, but that’s how it goes. Maybe this will be so successful, we’ll do another one.

We’re collecting creator bios now, and we’ll reveal to you all who’s going to be in it, along with a whole bunch of other details.

Thanks so much for the support, everyone.

~Megan

Oh bother, I haven’t gotten anything. D: Bollocks. ,__, I suppose that means my entry didn’t get sent.

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scarfwearinggiraffe:

Fuck Yeah FTMs!: Anon Writes:

fuckyeahftms:

Hi! I love ur blog ppl! lol so i have this issue, Im a trans guy and well im pre.everything, I’m in a ldr with this girl and the other night we were skyping and she was in the library, i took my shirt off because I was hot and I’m comfortable enough to do it with her but she got upset because she…

She was being insensitive to your needs. She’s also being irrational and paranoid for no good reason. Maybe she isn’t out to people and doesn’t want them to know. Or maybe she doesn’t want to out you. It could be any number of things. But you two need to talk it out. If you can’t communicate with each other like adults then your relationship won’t last. Take it from the dude who has been there, done that.

Wait, back the fuck up here, she’s insensitive because she doesn’t like being put in a situations she isn’t nessecarily comfortable with?

I’m sorry mang, but I have got to call bollocks on that right now. She’s insensitive to his needs yet he’s well within his right to go about making her uncomfortable?

Let me get this straight, she is in a public place and skyping over her laptop or somthing which can easily be seen by those around her and she’s talking to her shirtless boyfriend. And it just so happens, she is not comfortable with him being shirtless likely because of the place. So you’re telling me his preference of wanting to forgo the shirt because of the weather trumps her discomfort with being seen talking to a shirtless bloke?

I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but different people have different levels of comfortability when it comes to certain things. I’ve got friends raised more conservatively who aren’t very confortable with kissing in public but are the exact oposite of prudes in private.

This doesn’t even have to be anthing about the OP’s Gender Identity or whatever else have you. Nothing in the OP’s story implies that that is the reason. It’s a possibility, but it’s just equally possible she’s just plain uncomfortable with people seeing her talk to a half-naked person at all.

Either way, talking is indeed the right thing to do, but OP’s girlfriend should not be immediately villified because she’s uncomfortable with something.

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2171) I’m fortunate enough to have a very small chest, and can bind with ACE bandages as a result with no side effects or problems. It’s a personal decision that has worked for me for nearly three years. Yet I am regularly shouted at and berated by ‘support’ groups for it. I now just lie to them and say I use a binder to make life easier. I really shouldn’t have to do that, but well done everyone who’s managed to shame me into lying.

I’m not going to shame you for your decision, but I would not like you being so flippant about your usage of ace bandages either.

You don’t know how many blokes, possibly young and impressionable, are thinking, hey, it works for this person, so it’d work for me too! I know we’re not responsible for what other people chose to do, but I feel like it’s a bit of social responsibility.

I have really tiny tits too. (Well, maybe not tiny, but I can get away with not binding at all if I wear lots of loose layers and slouch.)  I used to use both tape and bandages. I thought there were no side-effects either. But I started using a binder because it was much less effort. Recently, I tried bandages again because I couldn’t find my binder and after a few hours, I started feeling like it was getting a little harder to breathe. I probably hadn’t been noticing it before since that’s what I had become used to.

I’m not saying this is nessecarily the same for you, but I don’t think you can be 100% sure you aren’t really experiencing any negative side-effects.

All I’m saying is, I think it isn’t really apropriate to go saying you choose to bind with bandages instead of binders without clarifying you don’t encourage others to do it too. (I can only assume you don’t anon, only because I have no idea who you are and am just covering all my bases.)

(Source: ftmconfessions, via ftmconfessions)

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Listening to The Gaslight Anthem’s new single reminds me of how much I owe whoever it was that recomended this band to me years ago.

It’s always hard to believe everytime someone says something like this, but regardless of if anyone wants to believe me, to both the band and the person who brought me to them, I wanna say thank you for helping me stay alive.

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